الخميس، 3 أبريل 2014

في هذياني

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 1:50 م 0 التعليقات
قربك يثير فَيِ عوائقي القديمة...
يثير اللهفة...
يثير اللمحة الساخرة،
يثير عراقة أنثى عربية
ولدت شامخة
لا يبدو الضعف في عينيها
لا تهزها في حضورك...
ألف غريزة !
حين أن
في داخلها
تنفجر براكينها
الى ينابيع
و نيران مستعيرة !

قربك يثير فِي أكثر ما كنت أخشاه...
يثير برودي
يثير رغبتي المخمدة
و نزواتي المكبوتة
في أن أبثك من دفئي
أذيقك من رمقي
أداويك بناري
التي تغريك ألوانها
تغريك ساديتها
تغريك أشواكها المتراقصة
تغريك الفكرة !
بأنك ستكون لي الوحيد
تكون لي السيد الأول
تكون لي الحبيب !
تظن -عابثاَ-
ان لهيبها سيروي عطشك إليّ
و ما علمت
ان لن يزيدك القرب مني
إلا اشتياقا


اطفأت الأنوار !
هزت مشراعي
ما عدت أرى الى أين الهروب ؟
و جسدك الدافء
ينذر بالشرر
جسدي
ما عدت أريد
ان الاعبك
كطفل مريض
يأبى ان يخسر رهانه
 بقوانينك انت !
تراني أتمنى
في الظلام
ان تنزلق يداك ؟!
ان تأخذنا
روح الفضول
الى أعماقٍ أخرى
و نسعى لذلك البعد الآخر
حيث
لا مباديء مقيدة...
لا فضائل كاذبة
لا حدود!
دعني أكن أبعاد أفكارك
كلها...
بلا استثناء !
دعني في ظلامك الدامس
استكشف سمرة تقاسيمك
دعني أتخلى عن حذري
أتخلى عن كبريائي
و أغرق في ملامحك
التي تنهرني عن الشرود
دعني أتوه
و اذهب و أجيء
على شفتاك
و أكتب قصصا
و ألغازاً و حكايات
دعني أبني من جسدك قلعة
و أسكن على خط صدرك ذاك
دعني أكون لك الأنثى الكاملة
و دعني أنسج من حبك
الف ليلة و ليلة
من الأشياء
انسى ماضيّ الذي كنته
و أكون في حضرتك
كل النساء
دعني أٌقيس ملامحي بملامحك
خطوط جسدي و خشونة عضلك
و استشعر قبضتك تلك
فلا يغُرّني في حضرتك
وهمٌ أو نداء
دعني أنمحي...
أستقيل من جميع مناصبي
و أتفرغ لك !
لك أنت... و لك فقط
و خارج حدود ناظرك
جسدي أنا
لن يكون
خذني كاملة
برُقِيّ مشاعري
و بعنفوان حبي
خذني كلي او انتهِ
و اتركني بفضيلتي...

خذني كلي
و اجذبني
خذني من معصمي
و احملني مرغمة
لا يتذوق اللسان الا شفتيك
لا تعطش عيني إلا لسواد لعينيك
لا تهلع روحي
عاكفة عن خطيئتها
تائبة لرب العباد
إلا على مذبح كتفيك !
لأكَفِّرَ باقي عمري عن زلّتِي
و في بعدي عنك
ليسامحني الله و ليتولاني !
و لتدعو لي
بصدق نية
ان لا انساق وراءك مرة أخرى
في هذياني ♥ ♥
October 16, 2012

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رِفْقاً بقلبي... لا تأتِ

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 1:48 م 0 التعليقات
ما عدت أعرف الخطأ من الصواب !
ان اتَّبِع الطريق الذي يؤدِّي إلى حُبّك، قد يكون اكبر اخطائي في حق نفسي... قد يكون فيه خلاصي ! و بعد قد يكون فيه موتي !
اكثر ما يخيفني، الرغبة في ان انتمي إليك...
انتمي الى كل ما قد ينمتي إليك من قريب او بعيد... او اي شيء يبعث على راحة الانتماء إليك !
انتمي الى حضنك، انتمي الى اسرتك، انتمي الى شغفك و ولعك و آرائك التي ليست فقط تشد انتباهي، و إنما تتملكني حتى آخر رمق !... أنتمي الى تحفظك و الى تمردك ♥ أنتمي الى دفئك و شبابك و عنفوانك !! أنتمي الى الرجل الذي تعجبني سطوته و تعجبني كلمته... و تعجبني شاكلته التي لن تكون... رجل هو انت...كل هذه الإنتماءات التي يعدني بها الحاضر، كلها أشياء تخيفني ، تُمَسْمِرُني في مكاني من رهبة فقدانك بعدها... تتوعدني بالهلاك ! هذا لأني و بكل بساطة أؤمن بك ! أؤمن بكلماتك، اؤمن بأن لك تلك النظرة التي تأخذني الى المستقبل و كم اتمنى لو في وقت ما من الآتي الذي لم يجيء... ان أعيشها معك ... أو فقط، أشهدها من بعيد، لأصدق بعدها، بأنك كنت حقيقة موجودة في هذه الدنيا و ان عليّ ان استرد إيماني حتى و لم تكن لي بعدها .
الانتماء إليك يربكني حينما تتابعني عيناك... فأعلم اني بحضورك القوي و عقليتك تلك التي تأسرني، سأنتمي مهما ادعيت الشجاعة، مهما حاربت التيارات التي تدفعني تجاهك فإن قدري سيدفعني إليك ! و لكم أخشى انني حينما أسترد إيماني بالحب، ان تكون انت قدري... أخشى ان امتلكك، لأني فقدت الكثير... و أعلم انك ستكون اكبر ما قد يؤلمني فقدانه ان أتيتني ♥ فـ رِفْقاً بقلبي... لا تأتِ.

بقلم/
Nehal H Hamadah
December1, 2012

لا تَقْتَربْ !!

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 1:46 م 0 التعليقات
لا تَقْتَربْ !!
فقَلبي في قُرْبِكَ خَجُولٌ يَضطَربْ...
لا تقْترِبْ !!
و دَعْنا في البُعدِ
 الأيامُ تُدَاوِلُنـــا بينها
تحنّ روحي إليك
 في سهوةٍ
تجادلني ذكراك
عن ما طرأ في السِتْرِ
بيني و بينها
تستبيح ذكرياتي عنك
بقسوة
أشْتَاقُ لمَرآكَ
تحادثني
عن ملامحك تِلكْ
 فأنْهَرُها !
كم لاذتْ
 في طيات الفِكر بنا
 الشهوة !
لا تقترب...
و دَعْ أطيافكْ
 من حناني تسترق
لا تسكنْ
إلى روحي...
 ترِبَت يداكْ
فالقَلبُ من دفءِ حُبِّك
 ثَمِلٌ طَرِبْ...
<3 p="">N.Hesham
Dec. 4. 2012

تابعني من بعيد

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 1:45 م 1 التعليقات
تابِعني بنَاظِريكَ من بَعيدٍ فقط !
لا تَدّعِ الشَجَاعة
و تحاول
 ان تَمُدَّ
 من ضفائري حِبالاً
فتتسلقُ
 القِلاعَ
لا تَفْتُنَنك صُبوَتــِي
و لا صغائر فتنتي
فقبلك و قبلي غَيْرُنا كثيرٌ
 في ذات الدرب السحيق غَرِقْ !
لا تَتَعمّقْ
في تَفاصِيلي رجاءاً...
حَتى لا يأخذنا المَدّ بَعيداً عن شاطِئنا...
تستهوينا صِدقْ الكلمة
فنُخلِص
 مشاعِرنَا
و نترك انفسنا
 لننزلق...
 مع التيار، تتولد أحلامي الجَارِفة...
تتمَلكُكَــ أحاسيسي
تَشُدّكَ براءةُ هَفَواتِي...
و سوياً نتوه...
سوياً لن ينقذنا أحد...
فمهما حاولنا
لن يوجد من الحب طريق خروج
لمن سهواً سقط !

<3 nbsp="" p="">
Sept 21st, 2012


N.Hesham <3 p="">

أشتَهِيكْ...

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 1:42 م 0 التعليقات
أشتَهِيكْ...
أشتهي
ان تشاطرني
سُمْرةَ تقاسيمِك ♥
أشتهي ان تنسى في لحظة انفعال كل الحواجز...
كل التقاليد...
كل قيود المجتمع...
و ترمي بكل المعتقدات عرض الحائط
و تكتسحني بأمواجك !
أشتهي الغرق في أعماقك...
بلا شطآن قريبة
يرتمي عليها جسدي النحيل...
فلا أجد بعيداً عن جنون رغباتك...
الخلاص !
و لا أجد في العَوْمِ وسط هوجة أمواجك...
خَطيئـــــة !

September 29, 2012
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لا أرتاح

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 1:39 م 0 التعليقات
انا لم أعد ادري أي شيء...
لما لا تزال ذكراك تطالني في أحلك أوقاتي...
لم مهما قاومت سيطرة أفكاري في اليقظة فانها سرعان ما تحاصرني بك في منامي...
انا لم اعد ادري لم لا أنام...
لا أرتاح...
و لا شيء في حياتي يبعث على الارتياح
انفاسي تتلاحق شيئا فشيئا
حينما يراودني النعاس
لا اريد...
لا اريد ان انام !
لا اريد ان اعطيك اليد العليا
ان تتملكني
تتملك محيط أفكاري...
تتملكني في صحوي
و في هذياني !
انا ما عدت أقدر على ضرباتك
تلك التي تبيدني
تنتهك حرماتي
فأنا ما عدت انا ذاتها
تلك التي ملكت كيانها
ما عدت انا تلك
و انت ماعدت انت في ناظري...
ذلك الفارس المغوار
صرت تسابق الأيام لكي تنساني !
انتزع عني لباس حبك الكاذب
ما عدت أريد اكاذيبك
ما عادت تستهويني
ألاعيبك...
طفوليٌ
انت حينما تعود فتترجاني
انا ما عدت أريدك !
ما عدت انتظر ظلال ذلك الفارس
لكي يتفضل عليّ...
يتفضل على قلبي ببعض مما لديه
من حنان
من وعود
بنيت على أعمدة واهية
نظرات آسرة
و همسات تغازل فيّ روح البراءة...
كلها في الأصل
محض أوهام...
انا ما عدت أريدك...
لا انت، و لا سواك !

- الف ليلة و ليلة في أرق -
August 31, 2012

Chase Me Within the Deeps

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 1:34 م 0 التعليقات
♥ ♥ Chase Me within The Deeps ♥ ♥


Do not try to penetrate my feelings... It'll Only Overflow Us... It'll Drag me Down to the Dark Deep Blue and you would not help yourself but to chase me down.. It'll Drown You Wholly from within, and then when you can't gasp any air, when all the oxygen fades away from every living cell in you, The Flow will retreat in as suddenly as when it flooded... Your body will only be left there floating on the surface... You're breath is taken away... to Only Me <3 away...="" be="" breath="" can="" death="" from="" i="" in="" is="" ll="" me="" my="" nbsp="" not="" of="" only="" ou="" p="" re="" save="" self="" submerge="" taken="" the="" to="" you="">

November 2, 2011

الجمعة، 24 أغسطس 2012

مَرْسَى ، فَنَـــارة و مَرْكِب وَرق...

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 7:22 ص 0 التعليقات

مَرْسَى ، فَنَـــارة و مَرْكِب وَرق...
و شطّ ونْسان بعيون كتيرة مفرقة
أطفال بتجري و البسمة دايرة متفرقة
و إيدين كتيرة صغيرين
لسه محملتشي معنى القَلَقْ...
و سماء جميلة مِدَهَبَة..
بشمس ساطعة
ترمي ضَيّــها
ع الوشوش زيّها
عيونهم لسه مغمضين
مفيش ضلام
عشان جوّاها منورة ♥
و مركب ورق...
ماشية في الموج متعودة
تشيل أحلام قلب اتسرق
شايلة هموم متكسرة
لا في يوم هزتها ريح و لا همّها
تنادي يوم في الناس
الحقوا ...
من تُقْلها...
المركب غرق !!

***

و انا كدا...
حبيت في يوم أزيح حِمْلَك
لا تعبت في يوم منك
و لا اشتكتش
جريت بعيد عنك
نسيت نفسي...
حبيتني زي ما حبيتك انا ؟
و اللا ماحبيتش ؟
كانت ليه أحلامي في قربك مُورّدة ؟!
طب و العمل ؟!
لما سلّمْنا للفراق
قلبك هِدَأ ؟
و قلبي أنا ؟
مالهوش مركب تشيله
تبعده
يسلم قوام نفسه
ف لحظة ضعف
ميستسلمش ؟
منالش منك..
غير كلمتين...
عَدِّيــها بقى
قوام قوام
بلاش كدا
ما هو الخلل
مش مننا
مش مكتوب لنا
في الحب خير
قلبك فدى
بالنور ضلامي
متعيطيش !


♥ ♥ ♥

ليه و مين ؟
هو مكنش
يا قلبي ليا
عندك غير يا دوب
الكلمتين
عامة ً
متشكرة
و انا كدا...

معدتش هجري وراك على كل باب
قلبي معاك
سلمتله كاس الهنا
ببراءة شرب شربته
وقع... من سمه اتحرق !
قلبي مركب من ورق...
ساب الموج و طلع جِرى
وياه السحاب
شِدّ الشراع...
ارفع المرساة
و طير
معدش ليك
هنا هو صديق
ما هو معدش قلبك
له مصداقية في كلمته
و لا عدش في يوم تاني
يعوز يقول انه صَدَق...
هيطير بعيد بأحلامه
من ميناءه ف دنيته
و يرجع في منامه
يستغيث
كله كان أوهام
حتى حنيته
و مرسى الحب بعيد
و لا يوم يرجع يحن
لكذبته...
و يشيل وياه هموم المحتارين
زيه
في وكسته !
و أهو كله بيكبر
و قلبي كمان كِبِر لما اتخرق
و بكره يصلح غلطته...
يا مين فيكي يا دنيا
يفديني
بقلب تاني جديد
ميحسيسوش بحسرته !
ابعد عن قلبي
و لاتجيش في يوم
تسأله
ايه اللي جرا
قلبي رفضك
فضّ سيرتك
و انتهى...
اهمد بقى !

ن. هشام

الأحد، 19 أغسطس 2012

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 8:43 م 0 التعليقات
Key Life Phrase I Shine
Zodiac Totem The Lion
Zodiac Symbol As above
Zodiac Facts Fifth sign of the zodiac; fixed, hot,  positive, masculine and dry
Zodiac Element Fire
Key Characteristics Original, imposing, inflexible, motivated, ambitious, loyal, physical, charitable and majestic
Compatible Star Signs Leo, Cancer, Libra, Aquarius, Aries and Taurus
Mismatched Signs Virgo, Sagittarius, Pisces, Scorpio and Capricorn
Ruling Planet Sun
Love Planets Jupiter, Saturn and Uranus
Finance Planet Mercury
Speculation Planet Jupiter
Career Planets Venus and Saturn
Spiritual and Karmic Planets Mars and Jupiter
Friendship Planet Mercury
Destiny Planet Jupiter
Famous Cancers Steve Carell, Daniel Radcliffe, Martha Stewart, Matthew  Perry, Sean Penn, Eric bana,  ben Affleck, Antonio Banderas,  Kate  Beckinsale, Sandra bullock,  Charlize Theron, Stephanie Seymour, Hilary Swank, Matt Leblanc, Robert De Niro, Mila Kunis, Fred Durst, Halle berry, Jennifer Lopez and Gillian Anderson
Lucky Numbers and Significant Years 1, 3, 9, 10, 12, 18, 19, 21, 27, 28, 30, 36, 37, 39, 45, 46, 48, 54, 55, 57, 63, 64, 73 and 82
Lucky Gems Ruby, carnelian, garnet, red spinel, red coral and orange sapphire
Lucky Fragrances Cinnamon,  sandalwood,  orange,  lime  and bergamot
Affirmation/Mantra I am calm and satisfied
Lucky Days Sundays, Mondays, Tuesdays and Thursdays
The Sun is your ruling planet Leo. Of course the Sun is not really a planet; it is the center of our solar system. And, as above, so below! You shine as brightly as the Golden globe because you reflect the characteristics of the heavenly body that rules your star sign!

You too are a ball of dynamic energy. You are warm, bright and self-motivated, and you want to make an impression in everything you do — your work, your love life and your social life.

Because you are extremely generous, you expect others to be just as big-hearted. So when you see others holding back, you find it hard to not jump in and try to change that. You want to see everyone giving to the best of their ability. To other people, you can look like a bit of a tyrant, asking for more than they can give.

When you are feeling upbeat, you carry people away with your energy, and they love you for it. You love sharing your joys and successes with the people you love, and when you do, you are magnanimous — you never give a thought to getting anything in return. There are few star signs who really understand the nature of giving, but Leo seems to have perfected the art.

You also have a great sense of timing. When you offer a friendly word or gesture of encouragement, you pick the exact moment when it will have greatest impact. You always seem to be in the right place at the right time. You’re lucky this way.

Try to remember that your strong sense of self can be misinterpreted by others — understatement could sometimes be a more effective way for you to show your loyalty and express your generosity.
Some people think you are a show-off, but this too is a mistake. Your dramatic flair is part and parcel of your zest for life, your love of people and your optimism. For you, life is a stage on which you can perform and express your talents.

You may not be a performer on the entertainment stage, but Mick Jagger, a Leo, is, and he is a very good example of the strutting, egotistical nature of Leo. Mick exudes charisma, creativity and a personal style all his own. Not only that, but he has embedded his brand name as No. 1 in the rock industry, decade after decade. On the stage of life, you too will want to be No. 1, and to present yourself as someone special, with unique talents.

Loyalty is your trademark. People know you are a genuine friend who is always ready to lend a hand. Even if you can’t help someone with their specific problem, you still manage to send out a warm and reassuring vibration that makes them feel better.

On the other hand, you also have a need to ‘one-up’ others. A little more humility wouldn’t hurt. You will get plenty of praise and recognition for your energy and your self-motivation — you don’t need to big-note yourself. People will instantly recognize your abilities, and many will look up to you. Try not to let this go to your head; remind yourself occasionally to ‘get off your high horse’.

Leo’s totem is the lion, lord of the jungle — full of muscularity, grace and ferocity. This means that your physical appetites and general level of energy are extraordinarily high. You need to be physically mobile and fully engaged in meaningful work and social activities to feel good.

You are a born leader: people naturally gravitate to you, and look to you for guidance and security. This is especially true if you are born in the very first part of Leo - that is you're born between 24th July and 3rd August. At times you can seem a hard taskmaster, demanding excellence from them — this is just a reflection of your own actions, your own approach, but keep an eye out for it, and keep it under control.

For Leos born between the 4th and 14th of August, Jupiter and Sagittarius have a strong sway over your life. You are adventurous and love to travel, learn about new cultures and explores the world and people. Mostly easygoing you attract many friends and seem to be in the right place at the right time. You're one of the lucky Leos.

Are you a Leo born between the 15th and 23rd August? Then your fighting spirit is second to none! Nothing gets in the road of your ambitions so its quite clear that you will achieve what you set your heart upon. My only comment is that you should never tread on anyone's toes on the way up the ladder of success. You might just have to deal with them on the way down!

Generally you have a pioneering spirit; this is connected to your desire to be the best. So while you could be quite happy with a life where you follow other people’s rules and regulations, mostly you’ll much prefer to blaze your own trail.

This means you will carve out your own niche and make a name for yourself. You’ll shine in almost everything you do, and will without a doubt make your mark in the world — you can reach the top of the ladder, no matter what field you choose.


THREE CLASSES OF LEO
July 24 - August 5
Being born between the 24th of July on the 5th of August makes you Leo through and through.  Your charisma and power are undeniable and from early age you have had a strong sense of your personal destiny.  As a result don't be surprised to find yourself assuming positions of authority and power and life.  Some of you may even hold high office, become interested in politics or at this community work and will certainly become the best in your field.
August 6 - 14
As a Leo born between the 6th on the 14th of August you have an adventurous nature and like to explore the different avenues of life to make your life more exciting and interesting.  Culture, travel and higher studies are some of the different avenues which will draw you away from a conventional lifestyle to an independent type of life.  You have a great love of freedom and will never let anyone dictate the terms of your existence.
August 15 -23
Impatience and a hot-headed nature are some of the problems you face being born between the 15th and the 23rd of August.  Once you can bring these emotions under control you have a much better chance of not only being successful but finding happiness in your personal affairs as well.  Because of the strong influence of Mars and Aries on your birthday you have a strong ego and need to understand that others may just be right sometimes.  Notwithstanding these negative traits, you do have a very generous nature and are affectionate to the ones you care for.

BORN ON A CUSP?
Leo – Cancer cusp ( July 22 - 29 )
Being born between the 22nd and the 29th of July makes you a rather unique Leo - born native. Apart from the abovementioned personality traits you also exhibit the sensitive characteristics of your previous star sign, which is Cancer.
While Leo is a masculine and fiery sign, Cancer is a feminine and watery one. What this will do is balance the aggressive masculine traits of Leo, making you a softer and, at times, moodier individual. You will tend to absorb the stresses of people and the environment around you and therefore you need to balance your life much more carefully than the typical full - blown Leo character.
Along with your loyal and generous nature, you’re endowed with the intuitive qualities of Cancer. Not only that, both Leo and Cancer love people, but with this combination of zodiac signs, you will truly be a champion of the downtrodden and underprivileged. You have deep and compassionate interests in being of assistance to others. 
Being born on this borderline cusp also indicates that you have a receptive as well as retentive memory. Your ability to recall facts and figures is notable; however, you can also get stuck on emotional problems, not knowing how to shake them off. Try to live more in the present.
Another aspect of the Moon—the ruler of Cancer—that sometimes doesn’t work well for you is its maternal nature. You sometimes veer too close to the mothering/smothering lane, which can put people off.
In addition you love to mix with all sorts of people. Social activities are an essential ingredient in your development. You are a great success socially, because you can convey your wisdom to others so well—Cancerians have very expressive faces.
You’re a great organiser; you love your home and family and tend to be flamboyant, but you are also very sentimental. Self - discipline is something you need to develop in your life, and also take care of your physical health, which will, on many occasions, be dependent upon your emotional state.
Leo - Virgo Cusp ( August 16 - 23 )
The other end of the spectrum is the Leo–Virgo cusp and if you’re born between the 16th and 23rd of August you’ll be prone to possessing some of the traits of the next star sign to you, which is Virgo. You may or may not know that Virgo is often fastidious, fault - finding and highly motivated by intellectual aspects of life.
With this combination you must be careful not to become too set in your ways and ingrained with ideologies and opinions that often make you appear a hard taskmaster. When you do express your criticism of something it’s more than likely because you’ve analysed and summed up a situation correctly before acting out your thoughts. While some people might find this an annoying habit, others will never hesitate to involve you in their work. These people recognise your natural talents and will invite you onto their social scene and include you in their personal projects, as your expertise is highly valued.
Serving others is usually seen as a menial and undesirable activity by most. You see it with a whole new perspective. It feels good for you to help others, to see them achieve what makes them happy and, if you can be part of that in some way, it gives you pleasure.
You make an excellent teacher because you have the knack of explaining the ins and outs of even the most complicated subject in a simple manner. Unlike others who try to impress with their knowledge, you are unassuming and genuinely work hard at being good at what you do.
The Virgo element makes you perceptive and caring of others, and you are sometimes in a better position to be of service to others by not exerting your strength but rather sitting back and allowing others to lead you. This is the unique opportunity you have by being born on the borderline of these two star signs.
Having this combination of traits makes you fiery and fond of displaying your creative and intellectual abilities. It also makes you very dependable, and friends will always be able to rely upon you.
Although you enjoy a full social agenda, the shy and retiring component of Virgo will often make you slip in and out of the social scene and this is probably a good thing because it will help balance your life.

الجمعة، 10 أغسطس 2012

♥ Feverish with thoughts of You ♥

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 3:02 ص 0 التعليقات



somehow I want to be everything you ever wanted, I Want to Be That fantasy on Your Mind ♥ My Soul Feels the Hunger for You... It yarns to your possession... It takes me to places that does not exist in this fragile world of us... and I need to know as i go there by y own well, that when we meet again, I'll Own everything about you ...

Tick , Tock...
and Time Goes by,
Just like it's on the wing of a fly...
Tick , Tock...
Wherever you are, Why did you leave a part of your self here to trouble me ?! Thoughts of you just scattered around my hyper-Active-wild imagination ♥ pumping you with every random thought into my heart ♥
Nothing seems to please me anymore . The food Does not seem sufficient for my existence, Neither does sleep nor Air♥
There's always something missing, that makes everything else seems trivial to it ♥ You're captivating presence, how it sneaks down on me like a toxic venom spreading, rushing though my veins... weakens me ♥ Taking Over me... and i seem to have no power to resist.
I'm now paralyzed ♥ and you own every bit of me, The Stronger i Fight, The faster you'll prevail ♥
Nailed to the ground... the sweet taste of your poison still lingers on my dying lips ♥ I can't cry out for help... But as you turn your gaze right through my eyes you know that i want you to take me ♥ My weak body surrenders only to your Venom .

I want to hold you. To grab you close to my heart and tell you how much you mean to me... how much i yarn to you... How much your absence deprives me my own Life ! How much i want to get closer and closer and forget that any other sane thought could exist on this dimension but the sound of our panting breaths ... ♥ I need you to breath your soul OUT into my lungs... I want you to Dare getting Closer, Dare to push me against the wall... Dare to get your sweet lips closer to mine... to wish them a good night sleep and then get As far away as you can... Drive me insane by almost having you... and then having none at all !
Let me drown in you completely with no chance to breath, then get me to the surface... Wet, Cold, Alone...leave me a minute or two to gasp whatever air i can find then rush me back to the depth of you... leave me no chance to Live out there without your suffering... Leave me None at all !
Dare to grab me from my hair... Find pleasure in fighting me back as i push you away... Fight to Have me the way you please, the way i please and would Never Admit that i do...
Never Mind what i say in reality, You're my deepest wanting...
My Darkest Obsession ♥
And when you go I feel nothing... Nothing but the silence wraps around me and Shake me till i faint... No Sleep can dare help me rest these tired lids... No Food can help me keep this body from The Hunger you left behind. You deprive me the joy of Life... You Are My perfect Disease... My Lethal Venom ♥

You are my oblivion

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 2:55 ص 0 التعليقات

The Simple question " Why ? " Is always leading me to new doorways...
with locks that need keys too strong to open, that'll eventually lead to my destruction.
I want to unfold your secrets...
everything new i know about you makes wonder more, want to know more, gets me trapped in this maze of you...
You are my Oblivion...
The more i Know, the more I want...
The More I Want, The More I need to Know More...
 More of you
... & It'll never end.

I Cannot seem to resist that Flow of curiosity leading me to your doorway... The Questions " why? What? Whom ? What If ?" Suddenly I'm Alice and you're the Far Away Land I'm Lost In...
Consumed by your history, by what made you who you are? What makes you the exact precised pole to attract me in despite of my failed resistance...

What Ever Happened to you that made you so intriguing ? ... Whatever gave you that strong Aura that captures my senses every time you're near ?
Whatever gave you that signal, that no one but me... falls to it's trap ?
whatever gave you that hidden power to force yourself into my thoughts , and with your presence rushing through me every possible  way of defense i have falls to you, All the walls i built seems to  collides in your presence ?! everything i once made of myself is threatened by you...
Such an intriguing chemistry , a threatening formula that'll only lead me to my doom.
You gave me the pleasure of ruining my self... I can smell the smokes on you, there shall only be fire in this... nothing ever good can come out of it. You are the Fire... and I'm welling to Burn <3 p="p">
Whatever gave you that ridiculous charisma that made it only IMPOSSIBLE for me to Ignore you ?!

N. Hesham <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p"><3 p="p">

الاثنين، 11 يونيو 2012

My Guide-Lines for the one =)

مرسلة بواسطة TheSecretLifeOfNehal في 10:49 م 0 التعليقات



I Want Someone Who's Passionate in every Single Detail of the most insignificant details of Life ♥
He may not have the muscles, but every inch of his body beats with the vigorous youth ! Every Beat that courses through his veins makes you startle at his Strength ♥ For he is more than what life has to offer ♥
I want him to talk as if the world is simply not enough for his conquers and invasions !
I want him to work as if he's the only PERSON there to do it Right !
I want him to Laugh as if the Earth Should tremble to the Sound of his Voice...
And i want him to love me as if he's The Only Man Who knows How to Love ♥
I want him to Neglect all presence of anything else but me... to be Drawn away from everything around me... to ONLY Me ♥, to have what it takes to SCREW OUT SOCIETY... to take me OFF GUARD in a library and Kiss me like it is the Only Thing that matters to the Universe in that Exact Same moment ♥
and when he's done, my lips wont ever feel anything sweeter, my knees will never know a more delicacy than that moment and every inch of my body will collide to his ♥
I want Someone Who reads the Thrill off my lips, and Breath out his lust for me into my Lungs ♥
I want him to Walk To me like he's preparing to pounce on a pray, but at the end he pulls me softly to his side ♥ eating me as i stand there helpless... with his gaze ♥
and when he do, nothing in the world could ever help me from his eyes... as if it was my destiny to be burnt Alive just waiting him to finish his feast of me ♥
I want Someone Who's Educated Enough, to know that in every Undying Civilization that passed, Men and Women Stood Aside, not one before the other ♥
Be That for me =) Be the Glimpse of recklessness that Captures me to the Core... and you Can Own me from my Skin to my spine !
Be my Campus, My Leader, My Raw Model, My Lover... and My Friend
and I'll be Yours in every Possible Way

N.Hesham ♥

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